i would like to think our paths are straight
disconnected from choices we make
that there is no reason why it can't be like you said
one day it's gonna happen
i don't know when, i'll be on your street
but i know one day it's gonna happen
you're gonna be swept off your feet

happy birthday to one of my most favorite people on earth :D i hope you do get swept off your feet, crazy ;)

miss you.

random things

1) i just received 2 compliments (or at least that's what they seem to me :P) from 2 pretty girls today, and well, it just made me so happy :D i told a guy friend (who happens to be my former boyfriend by the way) about it, and he told me that those were exactly the traits that draw him to me. and i just smiled at the thought. i still get surprised at how others see me, even though i kind of get pretty much the same impressions from people. anyway.

2) i'm reading a new book, which hopefully i'd get to finish soon. :D i just came from a retreat last weekend, and as soon as i got the chance, i bought the book which the priest said he recommends "for every girl to read". that's enough to get me intrigued (even if the priest already gave away the ending :D) and search the racks of powerbooks and national bookstore. apparently, it wasn't easy to find. when i finally found a copy, i even hesitated for a while there, because the cover is just so... bland. you know, not even an illustrated cover, or a summary at the back. it just has the title on it. but since i already spent more than an hour looking for it, i decided to buy it, thinking that it was the only way i'd get to read the book. but then on my way home i remembered project gutenberg and that daniel had already downloaded those ebooks, and i could've probably just have him print it and buy it from him... but that would've taken a lot more time. and i still wouldn't get my illustrated cover. =S so anyway, if you're a girl you might want to grab a copy too. ;) of course at the moment i can't say if it's really a must-read for every girl, but if you're interested, the book is far from the madding crowd by thomas hardy. :)

3) i really like the new dashboard song. it's even kind of providential how i got attached to it. i've heard it before but it didn't really register enough for me to search it. but last tuesday on my way to the mrt, it was played on the radio and since it's obviously dashboard, i stopped my brother in time just when he was about to change stations. then when i got to work, one officemate told us that he had some new mp3s which we might want to copy and there it was! then when i got home, it was played during the prom scene in one tree hill, which was actually a rerun of last week's. and to think i was a bit bummed at first to find out that etc's airing the same episode. :P but when i heard it i was like, yep, that's exactly why i had to watch that again. :D

well that's all i guess. i'm just pretty relieved i'm back to writing nonsense. :P

some you give away

"don't ever tell anybody anything. if you do, you start missing everybody."

it was a quote from one of my favorite books, catcher in the rye. that line didn't exactly strike me when i first read the book, because well, i guess i was a (slightly) different person back then, and it just didn't apply to me. but now it does.

defense mechanism. i think i had a talent for that. which just explains why i agree with the above quote: don't tell anybody anything. prevention is better than cure. lock yourself up in your room. these were probably the mottos that my subconscious live by.

when crazy sent me this quote, i suddenly realized how much i’ve changed. or how there’s now a different side of me that not so many people know of. let me explain:

i’m that type of person who remembers small details, which for others are probably little meaningless things (sadly, this does not necessarily equate to having good memorization skills). i’m a sentimental junkie and sometimes i feel like my heart is too big for me (these are just my thoughts though, and it’s ok if you think otherwise since we’re all entitled to our own opinions :D). i remember one episode of gilmore girls where lorelai kept rory’s “dean box” (dean was rory’s first boyfriend) and told her how she’d regret it someday if she decided to throw it. apparently i’m like lorelai. i’m so sentimental that i have 3 big drawers (about 1m wide each) and a couple of small ones filled with all sorts of memorabilia. i keep all the letters i get (ok, except for one which i burned because it was from a guy who turned out to be jerk, and the other one i returned to the guy who gave it to me), even dinner receipts and small notes. i don’t want our house renovated because it simply just won’t be the same. i told a friend how i’m not fond of changes and he concluded that i’m just scared to move out of my comfort zone, and he’s right. i just don’t want to think of it that way. anyway, i used to wear my heart on my sleeve too. but since i’ve become good at this defense mechanism thing, i try to keep things to myself instead.

but recently i made a stupid mistake of opening my mouth (or rather letting my thumb send a text message) which made things more complicated for me. don’t ever tell anybody anything. i shouldn’t have let my guard down but i guess it’s bound to happen anyway, sooner or later. fortunately, i’ve mustered enough courage to speak up again, but this time just to iron things out. so i’m a bit relieved now. and then one night it just dawned on me that the person i miss is gone, for the moment or maybe completely, and that it’s time to move on. or at least not to keep my hopes up and my fingers crossed that he’s going to sweep me off my feet again.

so there. overshare, i know :P hopefully i’ll be back to posting about trivial stuff next time. :) otherwise, i’d probably diagnose myself as depressed, symptoms of which include blogging, according to allison in the tv series freddie. :D speaking of, i just remembered that i did plan to watch she’s all that again. just what i need. chick flicks cheer me up, what can i say… :P