i haven't really kept track of the uefa matches, but i learned 2 weeks ago that ac milan, the team i'm rooting for, would be up against manchester united for the semis. it seems like everyone's expecting man u to win, so fortunately for them, man u didn't disappoint.

saw the news this morning, and i immediately emailed julius a sad face and the link that made my heart sink. he replied just before office hours were over, saying that he got to watch the game and that his favored teams were actually man u (so unlike me, he's happy) and chelsea. i don't really care who wins between liverpool and chelsea although i must admit i'm more of a liverpool fan because of gerrard. :D well, what can i say, julius and i just never rooted for the same team. =S

anyway, i caught the 2nd half of the milan-man u match when i got home, with milan in the lead. and i just felt worse, because i already knew that they were going to lose. saw kaka's 2 futile goal attempts after already scoring 2 goals for milan earlier in the game. then rooney scored man u's 2nd goal and well... i just remembered how much i don't like (again, hate is a strong word) the guy! especially in the world cup last year when he was sent off with a red card in england's game against portugal. hmph. anyway, i just hate how he had to be the one who'd score the winning goal for man u IN THE LAST MINUTE! now i know how julius felt when france lost. =P

*sigh* my only consolation is that i got to see pirlo again. but! there's still the 2nd leg. and hopefully it's milan who'd be in the finals. ;)

just plugging :D

well, i've been kind of hooked on watching music videos at youtube lately, which isn't exactly good cos i'm practically in front of the pc the whole day. ugh. =S anyway, i found a video of one of my fave songs by my favorite band EVER, our lady peace. :) and just like OTH, i don't get tired of watching it (or raine maida's face ;P) i just love love love the song! i even did my music paper on it, for my humanities class some 3-4 years ago. and it's actually one of those very few songs that give me butterflies in my stomach and make a stream of memories resurface in my head.

we laid underneath the stars, strung out and feeling brave
i watched the red orange glow, i watched you float away

*sigh* it's bittersweet. :D

anyway, if you're my classmate in hum2 and have really good memory, you'd probably know what song i'm referring to. if not, check out my friendster account and watch it on my media box. well, that's all. :D gotta go!

ps: i kind of remember a friend saying there's a version of the move along video (all american rejects) with hilarie burton in it, but i can't find it! so if you happen to see it, kindly text/email/IM me the url. thanks! :)

Gonzalez Hall

a friend once asked me what i miss most about college, and the first thing that comes to my mind was hanging out at the main lib. yep, i used to go there quite often. i’d really rather study there than in the eng’g lib... i dunno, i guess with eng’g lib, you just feel the pressure more, why with eng’g students as your company! :P i just prefer the more laidback atmosphere in the gen ref section of the main lib. the only downside would be getting distracted from actually studying. :D the gen ref section just has the most interesting books – the birthday book as our favorite. i don’t even know what the name of that book is, you’d just recognize it as the bulky blue (or was it red? can’t even remember!) book that has your personality and whatnots written there, based on the day you were born. pong was even amazed at how accurate the details were, as if everything written about his personality was correct, until he realized he was reading the wrong birthday. :P anyway, another book i get tempted to read was that on supernatural stuff. and since reading such books gives me the heebie jeebies, i haven’t really read much of it. :D

anyway, i’m not really a bookworm but as a kid, i used to dream of having a library as grand as belle’s in beauty and the beast. :D i also fancy joe fox’s bookstore in you’ve got mail, with the coffee bar and all.
crazy took this picture and gave it to me as a grad gift. obviously, main lib doesn’t come close to fox books or that library in beast's castle, aestheticwise. and the closest thing it has to a coffee bar is a vending machine. =P but i guess i just love the general ambiance of it. main lib does have its charms. :)

now if i could figure out a way to get in main lib again... :D

the waiting game

i guess you can say i'm the type who usually forgets to live in the present. i like to plan things, and i don't mind waiting. actually, i like it. it’s weird how i get overly excited about a big event but be ever so nonchalant about it on the day itself.

i've read f. scott fitzgerald’s the beautiful and damned and this line just struck me:
“things are sweeter when they’re lost. i know – because once i wanted something and got it. it was the only thing i ever wanted badly, dot. and when i got it, it turned to dust in my hands... i’ve often thought that if i hadn’t got what i wanted things might have been different with me. i might have found something in my mind and enjoyed putting it in circulation. i might have been content with the work of it, and had some sweet vanity out of the success. i suppose that at one time i could have had anything i wanted, within reason, but that was the only thing i ever wanted with any fervor. and that taught me you can’t have anything, you can’t have anything at all. because desire just cheats you. it’s like a sunbeam skipping here and there about a room. it stops and gilds some inconsequential object, and we poor fools try to grasp it – but when we do the sunbeam moves on to something else, and you’ve got the inconsequential part, but the glitter that made you want it is gone.”

i guess this explains why i relish more in the waiting than the event itself. but i don’t want it to be the case – i don’t want to lose the “glitter”. but it seems that at some point, it’d be inevitable, and that scares me. =S

anyway, i realized how engrossed i can be - thinking about the future, planning things, waiting, dreaming... (i am the star, after all!=P refer to previous entry) that i fail to see what’s in front of me, what’s happening at the moment.

"every day you wait is another day you'll never get back."

well, that just knocked some sense into me. and so, i resolve to multitask! :D to still wait, still (day)dream, but to remember to seize the day as well (have i not learned anything from horace?=P) and just how, i dunno. but it will come to me. :)
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oh, btw! i finally cut myself some slack and bought a cute top from that store at glorietta that we always pass by on our way to the MRT. i've been eyeing it for weeks (have i mentioned i like to wait?=P) and i told my friend that if nobody's bought it yet til our next pay day, i'd buy it na. i was even wishing that it wouldn't look good on me when i try it on so i wouldn't have to spend some cash, but... well, nuff said. =P

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