Sunday, October 28, 2007

all of a sudden i miss everyone

lately, things that remind me of the good ol' past just keep popping up. last friday, i caught encino man at star movies. it's practically my most watched movie as a kid and i used to think pauly shore was the funniest guy ever. anyway, this whole ice preservation thing made me recall an article i read about cryonics and how they attempt to revive a dead person (e.g. ted williams) when they finally find a cure to that person's disease. personally, i think it'd be a futile one. but i'll leave them to their business. ok so much for that.. that's another story altogether. :D

i was also watching MTV the other day, and so i got to watch music videos of songs from high school. there's this song by texas that brought me back to my smash hits addiction days... smash hits was this costly magazine from the UK that i used to save money for, just so i could browse through these glossy pages with brit pop acts on them. smash hits was my version of people mag back then - but since i've outgrown my fancy for boyzone and other brit pop bands, i learned to spend my money on clothes instead. back 2 good from matchbox 20 was also played. i remember writing on my journal back in high school how this should be my sophomore barkada's theme song... just because i think we're sort of dysfunctional in a way. but despite the drama, i still think it was the most fun group i had in high school. ;)

then last night, a bunch of college friends showed up at our house as we finally pushed through with our game night. it was loads of fun to say the least. there were some instances too when we took a break from playing and told stories from our freshman year - ROTC, aggre variety show, blockmates we've lost touch with, etc... freshman year was probably the best year i had in college - when it's still quite like high school and you're this tightly knit group of naive freshies experiencing new things together. plus the subjects were not that complicated yet, let's not forget that. :D

it's the day after game night and i just have this hollow feeling... the kind one usually gets once the fun stops and it's a lazy day ahead. i wish we could keep on playing cards or whatever, drawing silly things on the loser's face, and that nobody has to go home. but of course that's too much to ask. :D anyway, here are some (before and after) pics from last night. browsing through these pics still makes me smile like an idiot. memories are not all traitors after all. :P
introducing... the UNIBROWS!
(guess who's the biggest loser! :P)

brooke: we should do this more often.
lucas: do what?

brooke: be friends.
lucas: we are friends.

brooke: but we should be friends.

lucas: i'd like that.

here's to making more beautiful memories... see you guys again soon (i hope)! :)

Thursday, October 18, 2007

room 408

you know how the idea of a long weekend makes one high with bliss - especially working people like me, since it's one of the very few vacations we get. well, i thought last thursday would be fun due to the 3-day rest ahead, but instead i found myself sobbing while walking along the halls of st. luke's, being watched by other patients who were probably wondering what disease i just learned i have. or not.

well i hate to disappoint, but i won't announce what it was. all i can say is that i needed to undergo surgery, and unfortunately it's not lipo (which would've totally worked to my advantage), as daniel had guessed. so there i was back at st. luke's friday afternoon, waited and wailed at the ER for what seemed like forever, just to be admitted, since there were no rooms available at that time. after 4 grueling hours of waiting, we finally got one, and i had my first shot at riding a wheelchair. =D

i was confined for 4 days, which was also a first by the way... or second, if that one night i spent in the hospital for throwing up because i ate penoy before dinner from when i was 5 counts. (i even remember my brother telling me to get well so we can watch sleeping beauty when i get home - how could i forget, it was one of the rare occasions he was nice to me!) anyway, despite missing the long weekend and not being able to go anywhere else, those 4 days turned out to be quite good - i guess more than the operation, i needed those 4 days to think out what has happened to me lately.

i know i've become a worse version of myself since i got out of UP - these new experiences have somehow made me "slip away". i remember telling anne how i've become worldly, and that's just not the kind of person i'd like to be. luckily, "life has a funny way of helping you out when you think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face." and it was this operation which kind of woke me up, and it's not even because i thought i might die. but rather its being a major turning point for me. well, let's just say it's helped me clear my head and made me want to resolve my issues. :D

and then there are these recurring thoughts on marriage. haha :D i often joked about it with my friends, that i'd want to settle down soon for the lamest of reasons, but whatever. it's one of the best things that could happen to you, don't you think? :D well, i remember a priest saying why wait/postpone getting married if the only thing that keeps you from doing it is money/financial stability, or something like that. then when anne and her mom visited me just before i was brought to the OR, her mom said she would prefer to have grandchildren when she's still strong (and hence, not that old). then i dreamt of stephen colletti (probably because i keep seeing his ex in this neutrogena commercial) and brooke from OTH so i decided to do a one tree hill dvd marathon - and i could just melt watching nathan and haley and their high school marriage drama. *sigh*

also, this experience has made me realize yet again how blessed i am - especially with the friends i have. i'm really grateful to have these friends who kept checking on me and who'd go out of their way to visit me in the hospital, bring me some goodies and most importantly, include me in their prayers. i love you guys. <3

extraspecial thanks to the guy who kept watch on me for 3 nights while i was recuperating from my operation. i know i haven't given you enough recognition for all the things you did and are willing to do for me, so thanks. even with all the shenanigans that happened to us, you're still the guy i'd love to be with for "some coffee, or drinks, or dinner, or a movie... for as long as we both shall live." i love you always, all ways. :)

on a more lighter note, i've been watching a lot of teenick while i was confined (no disney channel, bummer), and i'd just have to say chase from zoey 101 is so cute! :D why does the guy-friend-secretly-crushing-on-the-lead-character always have a mop of curly hair? well, i just noticed a pattern: gordo from lizzie mcguire and this chase guy. anyway, i like them both. :P
well that's it. i could only wish my next operation is just as enlightening. =D